This is what victory looks like

I stayed in bed Friday morning in a final effort to get the excessive swelling to go down. It worked! Here’s my view at noon on Friday:

DSCN7590  3 months plus 1 day post-surgery, cropped to 4x6

Three months + one day post surgery for a trimalleolar fracture in my left ankle

The swelling from last weekend’s activity was beginning to worry me; it still looked pretty bad on Thursday night. I will be more careful in the future about remembering to take the time to rest and elevate my ankle.  At some point, I hope to remove the nail polish from mid-October and apply a fresh coat of color — but that requires more contortion than I’m willing to provide right now.

In an effort to keep from swelling up again, I indulged in only a few hours of very mild activity on Friday afternoon:  I mixed up, rolled out, and prepared pie pastry (SuperDad took care of prepping the apples for filling) and then drove a couple miles to sit in a recliner, drink tea, and visit with a friend. By 5pm, my ankle was back to its normal amount of swelling — yes, just that little bit of activity is enough to cause my ankle to swell.  Welcome to my world!

 

 

 

 

 

Nordic Night Skiing

DSCN2347  Destination, Mt. Spokane, WEBSIZED

SuperDad and The Scout took the small camera with them on Monday evening when they went up to the mountain to see the Snow Moon rise.

DSCN2349 Sunset glow, WEBSIZED

Sunset glow from the parking lot

DSCN2350 Afterglow, WEBSIZED

DSCN2359  Snow Moon, 22 Feb 2016, WEBSIZED

Snow Moon

DSCN2363 the Scout on skis, Nighttime Nordic skiing at Mt. Spokane, WEBSIZED

Cross-training workout for The Scout

Since I am not at all ready to hike or ski, all 5 of the above photos are courtesy of our two adventurers. I took a few pictures of the Snow Moon from our driveway but they are still on my camera and not as spectacular as the pictures found in that link.

Three Months Post-Surgery

Three months ago today, I had surgery for my trimalleolar fracture (compound breakage/shattering of just about everything possible in my ankle joint). I had already spent over 11 days in pain with my left foot/ankle elevated in the effort to reduce the swelling so that the surgical team could go ahead an operate.  When we met with the surgeon prior to surgery, he made sure we understood how serious the situation was: worst case scenario, I’d never walk again or severely crippled by arthritis in the ankle. I’m no athlete but I do enjoying hiking and camping, and just being able to walk, so I was pretty motivated to heal well.

Surgery itself was a 5-hour ordeal for which I was sedated and blissfully “sleeping” (best sleep I’d had in weeks!) and all of us — the surgeon, my husband and I — were pleased that all the repairs had been completed in a single event. Swelling problems could have prevented him from working on both sides of my ankle in a single day, but the easier repair was done and sewn up with no trouble, so he went to work on the more difficult portion as well.  In the picture below, I’m sure you can tell which side was more complicated to repair!

K's left ankle x-ray, webshare

This X-ray was taken on 25 Nov. 2015 while I was still knocked out for surgery. The last one taken  (4 Feb. 2016) shows proper healing but I don’t have a copy of it.

When I was about a month post-surgery, I wanted to know what my recovery would look like and I couldn’t get answers from the doctor. While I understand that everyone is different, I wanted — needed — a timeline for healing. All I found was this blog post, from someone younger, who was at an ideal weight and fitness level prior to her trimalleolar fracture and whose injury resulted in less hardware. While her milestones have been very helpful, I did not have the exact same experiences, so my purpose in posting today is to share what it has been like for me thus far for anyone else with a trimalleolar fracture.

The injury

I slipped and fell on my clean, dry kitchen floor on Friday, November 13th. At first we went to the Urgent Care Clinic, in hopes that I’d just dislocated my left ankle. They took an X-ray, wrapped my ankle in gauze and ace bandage, and sent us to the ER. At the ER they shook their heads over the simple bandaging meant to merely stabilize my ankle on a bumpy car ride, took better X-rays, and — after 4 attempts — “reduced” my ankle back into place. That experience was equivalent to the worst labor pains I’d had over four childbirths, in part because I had just spent 3.5 hours without pain relief, and it was just beginning to kick in when they attempted reduction. Emergency surgery on a Friday night is neither wise nor desired when one has an impressive amount of swelling (definitely not made better by the repeated attempts at reduction) so I was sent home with a prescription for Percocet and instructions to call for an orthopaedic appointment on Monday.

Monday was spent riding the health care insurance merry-go-round (by my husband; I was on Percocet, thankyouverymuch) and finally getting an appointment for Wednesday morning… which didn’t happen because a windstorm of historical proportions whipped through our region on Tuesday night,knocking out power everywhere. (Our home was without power for 8 nights, but that’s another post.)

The other thing we did on Monday was borrow a wheelchair from a friend. This was how I was transported to appointments. For home use (hopping to the bathroom on one foot), I had an old walker from a yard sale. Thank God for that $3.50 impulse purchase!
We finally saw an orthopaedic surgeon on Thursday, nearly one week post-injury. He told us how serious of an injury I had and noted how badly swollen I still was, so surgery was scheduled for the following Wednesday, November 25th. In the meantime, I was to be on my back with my foot and ankle elevated higher than my heart and nose. An upturned laundry hamper with pillows for padding under my legs did the trick. I continued to take Percocet to take the edge off the constant pain.

Post-Surgery to Three Months

I spent one night in the hospital. In part, this was due to such an intensive surgery (5 hours, 2 major incisions – one of which was difficult to close) and we believe it was also decided to keep me there because of our situation at home: we had been without power for 8 nights and 8 days, and there were no promises of when it would be restored. As it happened, the lights came back on around seven o’clock that night, so when we made it home on Thanksgiving day, the house had warmed up to a cozy 68 degrees Fahrenheit.  I was on intravenous Dilauded (hydromorphone) while in the hospital and it definitely does suppress a person’s ability to keep breathing while asleep. Hooray for CPAPs!
I was sent home with 2mg Dilauded tablets for pain. Staying on top of the pain was crucial; going too long between dosages would send the pain spiraling out of control, but the side effects of the narcotics were unpleasant.

For the next three weeks, I returned weekly to the doctor’s office for wound checks and to be wrapped up in a fresh cast/splint combination. At 13 days post-surgery, he removed the stitches from the side of the ankle with the simpler repair. He had hoped that both sides would be ready for stitch removal, but I still had significant swelling which worried him. It was another week before the surgical site had completely closed and the remaining stitches could be removed.

Some of that swelling was probably related to the 15 hours I spent out of the prescribed stranded turtle position (my name for it) when my husband drove us 80 miles to be at a different hospital for the birth of our first grandchild. Knowing now all of what was at stake in regard to wounds not closing properly, I understand why my surgeon was upset that I had disobeyed orders; at the same time, if given a chance to do it over, I would do it again — and he acknowledged that I had warned him in advance that I fully intended to do what I did. Still… no one likes to be chastised and if it hadn’t been for such an important event, we wouldn’t have done it. Open wounds can become infected, and this wound went right to the bone. Infection was a real danger.

At 3 weeks post surgery, with the wound finally closed and stitches removed, I was placed in a CAM boot but was told to put no weight on my foot whatsoever. Believe me, I had no desire to do so!  With the closing of the wound and the blessing of the doctor, I could put my foot in a lower position, so I was able to “do” a few things: watch a movie in the living room recliner, attend my son’s band concert in a wheelchair, attend a Christmas party with my husband, and go to church. Those events wore me out physically but helped my mental and emotional state. At least I was no longer limited to visits to the bathroom and visits to the doctor!

I began physical therapy after my 6 week post-op visit. The doctor told me to start bearing weight in my CAM-booted foot as tolerated. He also told me I shouldn’t need the strong pain meds anymore. I’d already cut back quite a bit but now was time to go off them. He explained that it would take up to four days but that my body would begin making its own natural form of opioids once the pharmaceuticals cleared from my system. I’m not sure if that is true, but I wanted to move on. Five days later my system was clear and I was no longer taking pain meds (although I continue to take Tylenol and Ibuprofen for pain) and I began driving myself to PT when the roads were not icy.  There are nights that I have trouble sleeping because of pain and/or spasms, but I like the freedom of driving so most nights I suffer until I can fall asleep. For the occasional truly miserable nights, when a cup of chamomile tea, a hot pad for my calf and a frozen bag of peas for my ankle doesn’t relax me or ease the pain enough to allow me to sleep, I take half of one of my remaining Percocet pills from before surgery — but that is always a last resort.

I had hoped the doctor would write a prescription (for insurance purposes) for me to get one of those cool knee scooters. Initially I wasn’t able to use one because of my issues with swelling and the need to keep my left foot elevated. However, once I was allowed to put a little weight on that foot in the CAM  boot, he said he wanted me using that foot, not babying it,  so I was stuck with using a walker for the month of January. It is a slow mode of transportation. Physical therapy has been very important in teaching me how to walk without limping or injuring my back with overcompensation.

At the beginning of February, one month after my 6-week post-op visit, I saw the doctor for what might be the final time (unless I have future problems with the ankle or the hardware). Fresh X-rays showed that my ankle has healed well and he told me “ditch the old lady walker” and resume life as normal. Easy for him to say! I found the concept of putting weight on my unprotected foot to be terribly frightening. The physical therapist has a much more measured approach. I am walking at home and at PT in bare feet with the walker, learning to put normal amounts of weight on that foot. The rest of the time I wear the CAM boot on my left foot, a hiking boot on my right foot, and use a 4-point cane for stability as needed — particularly for uneven surfaces, curbs, and stairs. I’m still slow but not as slow as I was a month ago when I could barely put any weight on my foot at all. There are times now that I am barefoot in my house and I use the walker to get across the room, then forget to use it to return. This is progress!

I went back to work at the beginning of February. I only work two days per week and spend a good part of the time sitting, or this would have been impossible. However, I still swell up easily and a weekend of babysitting my grandson — with the 90 minute drive each way, the lack of time spent elevating and icing, and the carrying of extra weight — while I was thrilled to spend time with him, I’m still battling painful swelling 4 days after coming home. If it doesn’t go down soon, I’ll be plunging my foot/ankle/leg into contrast baths: a bucket of ice water as long as I can bear it, then a bucket of warm bath water, then a bucket of ice water… Does that sound like fun? It’s my last resort but I may soon be trying it.

I decided to tag/categorize this post as Thankful Thursday because I am aware that, despite the pain and frustration which accompany me on this journey to healing, I am doing so much better than I was led to believe I would be doing. When I first injured my ankle, I thought it would be about 6 weeks before I would be walking again. Denial, much?  And yet, when I first met with the surgeon, he warned me that I might never walk again or that I might have crippling arthritis. It’s true that I am regularly hovering at 3-to-4 on my personal pain scale (between 3-and-5 on the scale with bees) and that I often reach 6-to-7 during physical therapy or at the end of a busy day; however, there is an awful lot of hardware inside my ankle. My left ankle is a full inch larger in circumference than my right ankle at this point in time. I hope that is due mostly to swelling and that I don’t continue to rock that steroid look, but I would much rather have a fat ankle than not walk at all. I returned to work ten weeks after surgery and prior to that I was working from home on my laptop. I’m walking in a CAM boot away from home and walking barefoot with ready support at home. That’s a lot of progress! It’s important for me to continually remind myself that I’ve come a long way since injury.

If you’d like to read all of my post-injury blog posts in order, you can start with this one and move forward chronologically. I’ve also put all of my “journey to healing” posts under that category, so you could use that term to search for the posts that way. (There’s a search engine and category cloud on the sidebar to the right.)

On the Podium

I wasn’t there to see it happen, because I was babysitting our grandson in another town, but SuperDad was busy making dreams come true on Sunday. For the second year in a row, he stood up on the podium after the race, but this year he also placed 3rd in his division at the Langlauf 10k Nordic race.

Langlauf medal 2016, cropped to 4x6 and websized

He tells me how out of shape he is aerobically, but I’m proud of him. Back in younger years as a college ski bum racer, he exercised several hours every day. Then for many years, work and family responsibilities kept him from spending time on skis (and living in Texas didn’t help matters for 5 of those winters). When he retired, SuperDad knew he wanted to live where he had the opportunity to spend plenty of time in the great outdoors. Spokane’s motto of “Near Nature. Near Perfect.” fit right in with what he desired for his lifestyle, and he does indeed spend time hiking, fishing, mountain biking, kayaking, and skiing.

Tonight SuperDad and The Scout are cross country skiing by the light of the Snow Moon up on the mountain. I sent the camera with them and hope there are pictures to share on another day.

With thoughts of love

DSCN4736  Reflection, CROPPED to 4x6 and resized for web

If someone loves you for what you can do then it’s flattering, but why do you love them? If someone loves you for who you are then they have to know you, which means you have to know them.

— from Bel Canto by Ann Patchett

 

To love someone means to see him as God intended him.
— Fyodor Dostoyevsky

If you love a flower, don’t pick it up. Because if you pick it up, it dies and it ceases to be what you love. So if you love a flower, let it be. Love is not about possession. Love is about appreciation.
–Osho

Not-so-personal computer

I haven’t had much time with my personal computer lately.

  1. I went back to work at the start of the month. I figured that if my daughter-in-law could do it after having a baby, then I could do it after having surgery — obviously with recovery time for each of us.  Although I technically only work two days a week, there are two additional days when I go to physical therapy. PT is hard work so the remainder of those days are reserved for R I C E: rest, ice, and elevation (I’m past the compression phase).
  2. Before I returned to work in the office, I was working some from home — usually with my foot elevated and my head propped up on a few pillows. Those were mornings when I could laze in bed with my second cup of coffee. The first cup was often waiting for me to wake up while my husband was reading headlines, checking the weather report up on the mountain and generally hogging my computer until I reminded him that it was time for breakfast. He’d leave to prepare the meal and I’d check in with e-mail.
  3. The Scout, our resident teenager, is taking his Spanish 1 course online, in addition to a full load of classes at the high school. There really wasn’t another option for him because he desired to continue with band — and I am 100% behind anyone taking music and other fine arts courses) — plus he is in special Bio-Medical courses only offered at our school, which he is taking in addition to his regular science courses.  For example, this year he is taking Bio-Solutions plus AP Biology, along with AP World History, preCalculus for maths [maths for my friends outside the USA, who use that fabulous word], Wind Ensemble, and an English/Language Arts class..
  4. At the start of the school year, The Scout was also taking an online PE course. Yes, online physical education classes are legitimate; in fact, they are much more challenging than a regular PE class because there is so much documentation and “paperwork” (computer work?) to be submitted. However, this occurred at the same time as the cross-country running season and even though he was taking the online course as a student athlete (didn’t have to use and report in with a heart rate monitor), it was all too much to do. When he fell behind in both Spanish and PE, he absolutely could not drop the Spanish while the PE could be made up next semester as a zero-hour course (before school) — so he dropped PE. We’re trying to figure out his schedule for next year now. His advisor met with us on Wednesday afternoon, but the plan she came up with will need administrative approval. I hope it goes through, because it is so much better than taking foreign language online.
  5. He’s been pretty tired at the end of the day because although the cross-country running season is officially over, the team encourages training all year long, with winter running club (before and/or after school) and participation in the track season as well. Some days he gets up extra early and does a zero-hour workout, either going to the local YMCA to swim or to the school. He’s almost always gone before I wake up. Can you tell he’s my fourth child? But he’s definitely not spoiled because he doesn’t have a computer smart enough (or with appropriate technology) to do his audio assignments, which is why he’s often borrowing mine to work on his Spanish.

So while I haven’t had much time with my personal computer lately, I can’t complain about the reasons.  I did want you to know that you are not forgotten. You should probably also know that I cannot seem to log in to my Feedly account. I don’t know what happened or how it happened. Does Feedly still even work? I don’t know.
Time to sign off — the teenager is home from school and ready to start his homework.