This evening marks exactly one year since my youngest son fell 23 feet out of a tree and landed on his back. He still suffers from post concussion syndrome, with an inability to focus and function for very long — or sometimes at all — and the same headache he’s had since he fell is still present. The Scout turns 18 and therefore will age out of scouting before the end of the month. His Eagle Scout project was completed last summer; however, he has limited ability to work and there is much “paperwork” (computer work) still to be done to achieve the rank of Eagle. He has already had so many disappointments over the past twelve months, so many things he’s had to give up and no end in sight with his PCS, that I really want this honor for him to carry forward for the rest of his life. It would be a bright spot in his craptastic year. His senior year of high school is yet to come.
Humorous-Juniorous had landed his dream job at one of the university laboratories a few months ago, only to lose it due to immaturity. Showing up on time, asking questions and communicating are important skills to learn. He’s now working at a cafe, because understandably he was not hired by another lab boss — and food, rent, and utilities still need to be paid for on a regular basis. H-J is coming home this weekend for a short visit and a large extended family get-together, so at least we will get to see him for the first time since Christmas.
In answer to our consistent pestering about applying for a job, The Barefooter announced to us less than 2 weeks ago that he had decided to go hike the Pacific Crest Trail north from southern Oregon. His original plan was to leave last Thursday but then I reminded him of the aforementioned family get-together (based upon a wedding) so he’s now leaving on Sunday. True to form, The Barefooter is not yet prepared for this venture but committed to going because once he gets an idea, he is tenacious. I shake my head and bite my tongue often. He tells us that he’s taking 2 months to hike as far north as possible before getting off the trail on September 10th (the day before his 25th birthday) and then switching his studies from horticulture to firefighting.
The Engineer and The Author continue with their jobs and the fine work of parenting Little Foot, who is now one-and-a-half years old. SuperDad and I visited them a few weeks ago (I had him playing in the sprinkler and his clothes were drying on the deck when I took this picture) and they will be coming here this weekend for the wedding/extended family extravaganza. I’ve already told Little Foot‘s mama that if they want to stay and dance after dinner, I’ll take this sweet boy home with me. Grandmothers with bum ankles do not do much dancing but they do enjoy playing and cuddling with babies. No doubt his uncle The Scout will also be ready to go home early.
If you had heard, yet doubted, that Pokémon GO is an exercise app, I can assure you that is correct information. Not only do I see and talk with folks who would otherwise be holed up indoors out in front of the building at work (our site is a Pokémon gym), I am married to a level 35 trainer. SuperDad continues to need additional calories to ensure that he does not lose weight from all of the exercise he gets running, biking, rollerblading, and more. He also does the majority of our shopping and food preparation; basically, SuperDad has been the glue holding us together. And I need someone to hold me together these days. There’s an unquantifiable toll on a mother’s heart as she can do nothing but watch as her (17yo) baby suffers or her adult children make mistakes. It doesn’t help when the prescription for antidepressants runs out prior to a holiday weekend and the regular pharmacy claims they cannot get it. (In truth, someone higher up has chosen to not obtain it; Rite-Aid pharmacy has come to my rescue with the very medication I need although it requires additional hoops and jumping through them without medication helping my chemically-challenged brain is… well, challenging.) As for the ankle, nothing has changed: it swells with use and weather patterns. I try to exercise in the pool several days a week for strength and balance, and I adjust my activities to match my capabilities. Some days that translates to sitting on the sofa with my feet up.
As I look back over my writing tonight, I note that it lacks cheeriness and for that I apologize. It’s hard to be cheerful without my usual dosage of antidepressants, especially when anxious over a few of the circumstances described above. The biblical mandate to be anxious for nothing and pray about everything doesn’t always get me through. Tomorrow should be better thanks to the “emergency” dispensation of 3 days worth of pills from the nice pharmacy up the road — enough to tide me over until they can speak with my doctor and get the renewed prescription into their files. And baby snuggles, which always improve my mood and general outlook on life, are a planned part of my weekend.
Happy birthday to the United States of America. May the temper-tantrum toddler days soon be behind us all.
It has been a rough year for sure. But that precious Little Foot sure compensates for some of it. Hugs dear friend. Happy 4th of July
Love you, dear one. That’s a lot to deal with even when properly medicated. There is just nothing worse than watching your child suffer –I got a big dose of that last year and it almost killed me. And watching your kids make choices that you’re pretty sure stem from values you went out of your way NOT to instill in them is also really difficult –got a big dose of that THIS year. I feel like there has to be a more graceful way to surrender to all that is beyond my control, but when it comes to my kids, I can’t seem to find it. So much love and light and solidarity from me to you.
You have had a tough year. I feel so sorry for your youngest –for an accident to cause such a change in life circumstances is so frustrating. I wish I could help you stop stressing about the older ones –kids are going to have to make their own way, even if it isn’t the way we envisioned for them. My mom spent so many years and so much energy worrying about my younger brother, and it didn’t really change anything for him, and he manages. We can’t change our kids’ personalities, unfortunately. I wish strength for you, and hope that enjoying the baby snuggles will help relieve some stress.
Maybe that’s not a biblical mandate, but rather a suggestion, similar to how my daughter views Stop signs when driving.
You and your crew have had a rough time. May everyone be restored to full health and function.
I hope that each and every one of you is able to enjoy the upcoming family get-together.
The baby is ADORABLE!
Thank you for the updates. Have been keeping you and the family in my prayers and will continue to do so. Sending love and lots of HUGS your way.
Hugs to you. It has NOT been an easy year for your tribe. The Scout breaks my heart most of all. I hope you get some good grandma time with that cutie-pie and the hiker brings back great tales of adventure.